Is it just me or is there a never ending struggle between "getting it all done" and still being someone everyone wants to be around at the end of the day? I feel like I have to choose between The Peaceful Mom and The Accomplished Mom.
I know my house should be in order and on the other hand I know the fruit of the spirit is peace. On my hand I know a messy house is a chaotic house, but on the other hand I know the fragrance of the Kingdom of God is righteousness, peace, and joy.
I think it's a bit ridiculous that dishes, laundry, and house chores should overwhelm one so much
at home with three under 4. Isn't there more to life? Isn't there more I'm called to? How can I stretch my hands out to the poor when they are always in a pile of dishes? If my hands [and heart] can't handle my own home...how can they handle someone else's?
"The foolish woman, for the pleasure of the moment, is tearing down her house with her own hands. The wise woman of Proverbs 31 does not eat the bread of idleness but this foolish woman consumes it. The word "idle" means "to lean idle, having no value, use, or significance". The root word "idle" means "to burn or shine" either in the sense of "only apparent" or "burned out". "Bread" is "food, especially grain for making it". Another word for idleness is indolence. Indolence means "disliking or avoiding work"." -Sue Becker
I'm currently in the process of improving the aroma of our house. Adding a new mobile member to the house, moving, trying to lose weight, and growing closer to full time homeschooling of our oldest is nudging me closer towards a improved redolence. I don't want to be a woman of idleness, but I also don't want to be a anxious woman of a well kept home.
I want a clean house. I want lovely meals. I want perfectly taught and trained children. I want an empty laundry hamper. But...what I want...what I believe God wants...even more so than all that---is a peaceful house.
A house where my husband and children want to be. I feel like 90% of that is what you can see, but I'm beginning to think it's 90% of what you can't see.
My heart. My attitude. My patience. My peace. My joy.
I'm asking the Lord to blend the two tasks before us...a well kept house and a well kept heart. I'm starting to think you can't have one without the other.
I'm starting with the heart.